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Tuesday, May 1, 2012

I had to abruptly let him go...

Hey all... I know it has been a few weeks since my last post but I needed a little break... 

It has been a little over a week since I abruptly let a man in my life go.  When I say abruptly I mean I just stopped communicating with him with no explanation.  The last conversation we had wasn't even a bad one however I realized that I had been in denial for a long time about the dynamics of our friendship. 

I have always been able to give what I would think to be sound advise to my friends and associates about relationships with people and it was time for me to start taking my own advise.  I felt this man was stringing me along and guess what I was allowing him to do so for many months...  I had nothing to look forward to other than the hope and/or possibility of a reunion of the relationship.  He would give me just enough words to keep me hopeful but nothing ever panned out.  I would say when are we going to be together and he would say very very soon but what I realized is that he was saying the same thing a year prior to that and the year prior to that.

I can never understand why people contradict what they say.  He told me he loved me and he was in love with me but yet the timing wasn't right for us to be together.  CONTRADICTION...  It took me a moment to get it but I finally got it last week.  I was in an unstable relationship.  I was bound to end up hating this person if I didn't get out when I could.  I was frustrated and in a state of denial but getting angry at the same time.  At that moment I knew I needed to release myself of this person and situation.  It was the only way I could truly move on with my life and give this dating game a fighting chance... 

I now feel lighter...  I feel a burden or cloud has been lifted and I am truly smiling again.  Never will I let something influence my emotions the way that situation did... 

Peace and Blessings

1 comment:

  1. Interesting...It's funny how things all come together!

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