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Monday, December 13, 2010

December AGAIN.... ALREADY

So it is December again and I find myself going into another year single...  It's cool.  I am dealing...  So in 2010 I did find myself in a good relationship and can't even complain about it.  (that's all I am going to say about that)

So what do I do different in 2011.  I am very secure about being single but I don't want to be single...  I do enjoy spending the holidays with my kids and my family.  They are surely a backbone for me during this time.  I have no problem with taking myself out to a movie or traveling across country alone to go and have a good time. 

I think I will come up with a few affirmations to get me through the next couple of weeks as they are setting up to be pretty tough...  God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I can not change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference....

Monday, December 6, 2010

I Remember You (with lyrics), Brian Mcknight

Music is good for the Soul....

Today I have been knee deep in Pandora...  Got my station set on Brian Mcknight Radio...  Just my cup of tea.  I've been swooned by melodious melodies all day while have a productive day at work...  I truly think my mother had head phones on her stomach while she was carrying me because I just love music, especially ones that feature live instruments not computer generated beats...

Anywho... This has been good for my soul today... My mind has been racing with typical mommy duties, work duties, and finishing up my Bachelors Degree... 2 major classes away from the that day...  I will share my all time favorite Brian Mcknight song... Enjoy....

I Remember You ~ Brian McKnight

Friday, December 3, 2010

A Single Woman---- Opens Mouth, Insert Foot....

Urban dictionary.com defines Open mouth, Insert Foot as when one slips up in a conversation and eat their own words.  So that is kind of how I feel right now.  I have worked so hard on not being a reactive type of person in situations that don't go my way or that I don't agree with and recently had a relapse.  I turned a situation that was trying to be smoothed out into a cobblestones.

At any rate again I am learning from my reactive nature...

To all I bid adieu..

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Single AGAIN!!! :(

Well I find myself SINGLE AGAIN... And it was one of those "it's not you, it's me" type of deals... So my question to all those interested is what do you do when someone breaks-up and ask to remain friends? Is that considered a "clean break-up"? While I am having my own challenges with getting over the shock of it all, my mind races to understand and follow the un-said rules. Any little word or action can cross the friend line and possibly cause friction or frustration.

Not only did I LOVE but I LOVED hard and unconditionally. I operated outside of the box on this one... I allowed myself to let go and see the many possibilities of a relationship and it felt so damn good. It was like a drug and I constantly needed a fix. I am in no way saying that I am perfect but dang... I really want to SCREAM "WTF"...

I have no desire to go back to filtering through all the sour apples to find a good one again....